Where Have All the Flowers Gone?

Sharing this feature of my floral headdresses in an editorial for Status Magazine back in March 2012. To be honest, I completely forgot this (and my past few posts) even happened. It’s kinda nice to have them all on here. This website’s essentially become my own digital photo album. Which is great! It would be such a waste if all these photos and memories remain unseen and forgotten in all my hard drives. And this is precisely what I said I wanted to achieve with my blog in my Reintroduction post. But now I find myself at a strange stand-off with myself. I love that I can easily look back on all these memories without having to scour through thousands of files but I can’t help but wonder if I’m oversharing on the blogosphere. I know this digital landscape can be a dangerous information minefield, where identities can be stolen and everything and anything can be immortalized with one screenshot. Your greatest defense against it would be to have a firm grip on your own privacy and security. While my online profiles, for most part, have been public, I never posted anything consequential or real time, due mainly to wanting to be present in the moment rather than glued to my phone but also for safety. Now that I’ve posted such personal stories on this, I wonder if it’s too much for one virtual space to hold.

I recently transitioned to making my little corner on the Internet a little more private and this website is my last hurdle. I constantly question myself why I’m even posting across different channels. Aren’t social accounts ultimately all for self-gratification? To project a certain image of oneself? And why was I subscribing to this culture? But I remind myself that this website is my own space and these stories make me happy. And besides, they’re not intended for any audience other than myself (and my mom and SIL lol hello fam!) Looking back at all my entries, while deeply personal, don’t hold any real value other than of a sentimental kind. I doubt any of this can be used against me. Plus, I haven’t told anyone that I’ve been posting on this space again. So no one even knows this is all here. And anyway, who do you think you are, C? Why would anyone want dirt on you? Not that there’s any to begin with. Lol! Okay, rambling and internal conversation over. Maybe there’s a way to make this blog password-protected? Could be worth looking into especially if these concerns are still bothering me in the future. But for now, this is perfectly fine.

Future Self, don’t sweat it. Write for us and what you want our Future Future Self to remember x

EDIT: made my Instagram public again so I can watch the videos I linked on some of the entries on this thing lol like I said, it’s an ongoing debate with myself hahaha